Fall 2021

 It's October 29 and I felt motivated to wrote about what's been happening. My family motto is, 'Something always happens." We got that from when my mother left my father and he claimed he was so surprised and heartbroken that he and I spent 3 weeks in Aspen recovering. He met a lady, sort of looked like my mom, she was part Native American and very beautiful she told my father that motto and it worked like a charm, no just kidding he went further and further over to the dark end and it ended with him in a dementia facility in a private assisted living (different in some areas than a public one) living a well taken care of life. He aged into a perfect European Gentleman, the aids loved him and cried when he passed away.

Im still on Twitter monitoring Jewhate accounts. I just reported one and put on my list another. Its the same old thing: Jews are Khazan Ashkenazi, ethnic cleansing the Palestinians (whatever that means), apartheid (even though 2 million Muslims live in Israel), colonizers (used to mean, people who pioneer a colony not a bad thing, now it is bad). I am finding moving forward with my fiction writing harder than journaling. I suppose that is not surprising. 

Whats been happening is I'm juggling ownership and living in several properties with my daughters and even though I thought they would be starting their own families with the value of their apartments, it seems Amanda is comfortable living with us and is thriving in her career. A very important part of her identity. Jillian is looking to move to Queens and get a one bedroom, she just spent almost 2 years in a box on the Upper East Side. I let a mistake occur in Florida, you can't turn the electricity off of a home in Florida,,,, so the house has mold. Im going to Florida to facilitate the cleaning and painting. My brother came up with the plan to clean, paint and then mold mitigation. I don't think it matters much but I was going to do it the other way. We'll see if it works. Wish me luck, I feel pretty stupid, but since my brother will never acknowledge the mistake no need to discuss it, just make it go away. 


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