September23, 2021

 Its not really October but you lose track of time when you retire. I retired into COVID lifestyle and had to pivot my retirement plans. The past year and a half to stay partially sane I adopted journaling as a strategy.  Now that I have finished two small spiral notebooks and don't know what to do with them but throw them out I will continue in a blog journal.

The three topics to cover for the entry are:

1. What did I eat?

2. What did do?

3. How do I feel?

Eating: B. honey bunches cereal & milk, L. miso mushroom soup with leftover pasta & peas, D. Ramen Noodles out to eat. (during the lockdown going out to eat was a treat and missed) You never know how important mouth watering asian food is until you don't have it for months)

Doing: Writing and creating an online budget to include my house in Florida ... costs associated with both places. We have done the wiggly on on paper now I want to create a formal budget.

I would love to de YOQi because my back is feeling sore.

Feeling: I still feel enormously guilty that I indulge in the vape pen everyday. I hear messages that I am killing myself and gonna invite cancer. Then I examine the voices and try to quiet every adaptation of myself and give power to the voice that knows that measuring all our actions will result in a greater awareness of self and ultimately a resulting future that will be tolerable. If the future is tolerable then we are on the right path because no-one is coming out of this alive. My late father's motto, hung over his work desk, If you can't dazzle them with brilliance, baffle them with bullshit! I found out recently it was W. C. Fields. I am not feeling brilliant, but since my world is more than tolerable now that Amanda left Billy.. I am feeling fine.

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